I’ve Been Hiding Out

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No, really.

I have been hiding in all sorts of ways. Some of it good and some of it… well, I may need to look at that. It’s easy to put someone else under a microscope and see what’s going on (or what we think is going on) but taking inventory of yourself really requires you to step out and view your actions like you would any other person.

And that’s not always easy.

To break my week of written silence here, I thought it would be a good idea to let you know I’ve been hiding out and why it’s been so quiet here lately. From what I can tell there are five main reasons…

Painting

If you’re part of my little Facebook community, you’ll know that I’ve been prepping for an art fair that took place last weekend. It’s been exhausting, exciting, and all around invigorating. I dove head first into painting and boldly went to the fair with only items I have painted. That is a first for me. I have only done a few fairs but I have always taken stuff I’ve painted, crocheted, and crafted. It was overwhelm really. I simplified that by focusing only on what I love and the outcome had good results.

In this case, hiding out in my studio until the wee hours of the morning was a good thing. Quality family time around the dinner table and then submerge myself into the depths of my studio and my paintings. It was awesome. (Correction: It IS awesome. I’ve got a steady flow of commission pieces coming in.)

Hide-and-Seek

This game has caught on like wildfire in my house. My littlest is always trying to find new hiding places and I’ll admit, she is quite good. (Takes after her momma.) She has this ability to find a spot that *isn’t* so hidden and remains totally still so you walk right by her. Our family games haven’t been restricted to only this though… there’s been oodles of bike riding, ball kicking, hockey playing, football throwing and yoga in the kitchen.* We’ve just been enjoying life. No shame in that.

Reading

I’ve always been an avid reader (to the point of getting grounded from it once). I’m not one to read much fiction though. My collection boasts works from many writers who have something important to say about finance, business, massage, art, creativity, and other self-improvement type goodies. I recently picked up Seven Days in the Art World by Sarah Thornton. I find the book to be fascinating and educational about the art world but I’ve had difficulty with it. Her writing style isn’t something I read easily for some reason. It could be due to the hour I’m trying to read it and the struggle to stay awake. I’m not sure. It’s just been a challenge and I’m sticking it out. (Not a good reason to not be writing here but heaped with all the other reasons, you’ll cut me some slack, right?)

Groove

My little family has been settling in just nicely to our new area. We’re meeting lots of people and making new friends. It’s been interesting trying to figure out if what you’re seeing is someone’s personality or if it’s the fact that we live in a new place where people behave differently. In a way, I feel like I’ve been hiding myself and this is the one where I’m a little iffy about it. I don’t feel it’s a bad thing but I’m not sure it’s good.

I’ve been doing a lot of self-work recently and one of my flaws is sharing too much. It seems I’ve learned to reel it in. Admittedly, I wonder if I’m reserving myself too much and I’m giving off the wrong impression. I’m still navigating if I’m hiding myself with restraint or if I’m finally reserving a little bit of me. It’s in my nature to question my behavior but if I bring it back to what my body feels like as things are happening… right now, I feel OK. I just need to remind myself that things will unfold when they are meant to.

This Blog

Yes. This blog. When I first created it, I didn’t use my name. I hid behind the title and my journey toward wholehearted living. I knew I would be sharing some personal stuff and for months I didn’t even tell my family or friends about it. The more I write the more comfortable I get with it. I’ve realized some of the stuff I’ve gone through and struggle with isn’t just my issue. Lots of people deal with them. As my comfort level got more.. well, comfortable, I’ve dropped the sheet, exposed my name and even shared this blog and Facebook page with family and friends. See? Not so scary.

The issue I’m having is I’m beginning to accept my love of painting and entertaining the idea of going after that dream.** This brings about the challenge of how to market myself. Working through personality traits and improving who I am as a person totally fits the scope of this blog. Painting does too, but I don’t know if it creates an additional hurdle for people to get to me, the artist.

It’s something I’ve been pondering more and more as painting projects gain momentum.

So there you have it… a few of the ways I’ve been hiding out. Most of it is absolute goodness but some of it falls on the “eh” spectrum. I’m working through it. Things are going swimmingly and my steady writing schedule has taken a detour. Hoping to get that back on track since I love writing as much as anything else. (Oh, the joys of being a multi-passionate person. Try to keep up and feel sorry for my husband, ok?)

 

*Post coming about that!

**It may not ever be a full-time gig, I still have my clients and other things going on that I don’t think I could be married to one profession. We’ll see.

 

4 Things I’ve Learned from My Daughter Redux

941306_10152824957170641_1919170735_nWhen I wrote 4 Things I’ve Learned from My Daughter, I didn’t realize the post was already written and safely tucked away in my Evernote notebook. Some points here are ones that didn’t show up in the first piece and others may echo what’s already been said. Either case, no word is wasted here so I’m sending this post out into the world and maybe you can pull something from it that the original didn’t deliver.

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During my second pregnancy, I found out I was having a girl. I can’t really explain what kind of fear this brought up for me.

Thoughts kept cycling around, “if I’m not confident in MYself, how can I teach her to love her own body?” Then, “what if something happens?” Also, “I can’t relate to most women, how will I be able to relate to my daughter?”

You get the idea.

While it’s not as scary as I thought, I suspect the scary part has yet to come. I mean as of this writing, she is only four and teenage years are not too far away. I am certain we will have bumpy patches and even more positive there will be learning curves and delicious laughter. For now, here are some things my daughter has taught me thus far…

See others for who they really are – not what you expect them to be.

If I had to sum her up in a sentence, I’d tell you she was a sensitive, free-spirited butterfly that is easy-going and just rolls with the punches. And for the most part that’s true. She is very easy-going and free-spirited. However, there are moments when she clearly has an opinion about what’s happening.

Because she’s so “go with the flow” I’m always surprised when she shows resistance to something new or shows she doesn’t feel comfortable. It always catches me off guard because where my son has trouble with change, she usually does not. So I expect her to behave in a certain way and when that doesn’t happen I realize there are things I might not know about her yet.

Sometimes it’s OK to hide out until you’re ready. 

Like I said, it’s not often she shows resistance to newness and change. Every first day of school has been a breeze and an exciting event. Ditto with birthday parties in locations she’s never been with people she doesn’t know. Easy breezy. But her first dance class left a lot to be desired. She was nervous and even though she had been there prior and was comfortable in the location, she clung to me and cried.

I wasn’t able to figure out if it was nerves, fear, or the worry about doing well but I allowed her to sit with me and observe. Her next class we prepared by talking about how she could just watch – but I was not going to be in the room this time. She sat with this the whole day and her resistance was greatly reduced. When that class was over she told me about how next class would be different and she was going to do the whole thing. And you know what? She did.

She has taught me to be more sensitive.

I’m generally not a “suck it up” type mom but I have no tolerance for whining and carrying on needlessly. In recent months, she’s expressed her opinions with quite a bit of whining. It took a little bit of looking deep to realize exactly what was going on. It occurred to me that she had a valid point of view. We explained that it was OK to express her feelings but we’d rather with words than whining.

Whining was her go to for communication because she couldn’t describe something that was be above her vocabulary and/or understanding. She just knew something was off and needed to express that. Being sensitive to that and really listening beyond the whining was actually what got us passed that phase.

Don’t take things too seriously and learn to relax.

Oh man, I cannot even tell you how fun she is. We play house in the woods. We throw rocks in the water. We paint in splattered aprons. We take the long way to where we are going. We have even been known to go alligator hunting in a fuzzy coat and glitter shoes. (Her idea.) My daughter has opened the door to a world that I didn’t realize I had closed off.

Nothing is off-limits. She doesn’t realize it, but she is bringing me back to the person I use to be – and thought I’d lost.

Living the Dream: Featuring Erin Berry

This post is part of a series of interviews by real people who are going after their heart’s song. Whether they are taking baby steps or giant leaps, they are living their dream. Every Thursday, our featured Dreamer will talk about their challenges, inspirations, and tips about how they juggle their life with what they love to do. Be inspired in your own life to go out there and lasso that dream of yours. Find other inspirational stories here. 



1477575_10152392411707895_1740386664_nErin Scott, founder of SillyFit, Inc.

I am a fitness professional and owner of my own fitness business, SillyFit Inc. I currently live in south Alabama (our beaches are lovely!). I really started this journey to living my dream while still living in Boston. It’s funny. I remember in high school saying to all my friends and family, “One day I will live in Boston and be a scientist.” And I did it.

For 13 years, I was a neuroscientist and worked on various research projects for Harvard and MIT. It was exactly what I wanted to do. It was exactly what I went to college to do. However, I have always had a passion for dance and performance. Long hours in the lab and living a not-so-healthy lifestyle for several years started to show up on me physically, mentally, and emotionally.

I fell in love with a workout program called Turbo Jam–a workout I did at home, in my living room. I eventually lost 50 pounds and it sparked my love for fitness. I became a team Beachbody coach and fitness instructor just for fun in my spare time. It fueled my love for dance and performance…and I actually found that I could help other people see their true potential through health and fitness. It was so FUN, too!

When I moved from Boston to Alabama, I decided to retire from my career in neuroscience and focus on making fitness my business. I am still a coach and fitness instructor. I’m also a personal trainer and Master Trainer with Beachbody. I certify group fitness instructors in Beachbody Live formats and mentor instructors as well.

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Can you tell us about your dream and what inspired you to go for it?

Honestly, I’ve never had a very specific dream…rather an overall feeling: freedom. I would dream about just having the freedom to do what served those I care about and allow me to do the things I love. Totally happiness. I think all of us just want to be happy. It looks so drastically different for every person, but when I see other people living out their passion, with a servants’ heart and truly free to live their best life, I’m completely inspired. I think inherently, we know when something’s not right in our lives…or “something has got to give.” I knew long before I discovered how to do it, that I needed to do it (seek out that freedom and happiness)…for my own well-being. Fortunately, I can do that while having fun.

What sort of challenges do you face and how do you get around them?

Every challenge I have faced (and there are SO many) I have been able to work through with faith that everything will be ok, things will work out, just keep going, stay the course. Naturally, I do revisit what’s working and what isn’t and will always “reinvent” myself from time to time. But I never just stop completely. I may pause, but never stop. It serves no one doing that. In terms of what sort of challenges…. it has a lot to do with knowing that there are always going to be disappointments. Not everything will work out exactly as you envisioned it. And sometimes, that’s actually good thing.

What do you love to do the most?10620782_10152392414027895_3588555160552281496_n

This is tricky to narrow down to “the most.” Personally, if I’m singing, dancing or laughing…I’m good. Professionally, and personally, I LOVE to teach, mentor, inspire excellence and really, truly…with every ounce of energy in my spirit: help reveal a person’s true potential. So many sell themselves short of their potential, whether it’s circumstances or environment or lack of belief are to blame. I do what I can–through health and fitness–to help them see their potential more fully.

Who supports you in following your dream?

Definitely my family and friends. I am grateful for all the support I receive from colleagues as well. I think we are all out to serve and it’s great to know it’s truly a team effort.

Who inspires you?

Every single person that has that spark of faith and belief in themselves…that fire in their belly. Each one inspires me in their resolve. There are so many people who inspire me…too many to name.

Where do you see yourself in five years?

This one is tough, because I have so many expectations for my business, my leisure time and how I’m doing personally: spiritually, emotionally, physically and mentally. I would love to see my team of coaches expand into the thousands. THOUSANDS of us helping people get fit, healthy and live happy, fulfilling lives. I would love to certify and mentor new instructors totaling the thousands as well! I see myself dancing more…just for fun…perhaps even dabbling in choreography. I see myself stepping closer and closer to freedom.

What is the biggest tip you have for anyone looking to following their dreams?

I know…it’s so cliché — but seriously: don’t give up on your dream too soon. Your dream is a part of you…and extension of you. Don’t believe for a second that you don’t deserve it.

Anything else you’d like to add?

Despite what odds you are up against, always maintain your sense of humor. It’s a literal life saver. I truly think I might not be where I am today had it not been for laughing about a lot of it…because some parts of the journey can be quite ridiculous. But that’s just it…it’s part of the journey. Laugh about it and keep your chin up. The second you lose sight of the bright side, you lose a piece of that dream.

 

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 If you or someone you know, is reaching for the stars (big or small) and loving it, I would be honored to have them featured here!  Please note, this is not reserved for artists only, dreams come in all shapes and sizes. Whether it be crafting, doing yoga, chasing kids, coupon clipping, or playing golf. If it’s a dream and someone is trying to get their hands on it, I want to hear from them!